Full-Blown Suffering: My Struggle Against the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a gloomy Monday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a educator, trying to settle a new group of students, when a intense pain erupted behind my right eye. This was followed by rapid jolts, reminiscent of electric shocks. As the school day progressed, the pain eased and then returned with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I left a teaching assistant with worksheets and hurried to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I tried ibuprofen, but the pain remained unbearable.

The attacks appeared frequently that fall, and again in spring, soon establishing an annual pattern. The autumn months were the worst, then the late winter. I could predict the pattern: a warning sensation in the shower, early twinges on the commute, full-blown pain in the classroom by 9.30am. In 2019, a doctor eventually referred me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

This condition typically begin with severe pain around one eye that lasts up to several hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 people suffer by the condition, and males are more frequently diagnosed. Cluster headaches typically begin with abrupt, severe pain around a single eye that peaks within minutes and continues for up to three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or face sweating. There exists an episodic type, which arrives in periodic cycles; some patients have chronic attacks, defined by the lack of long pain-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the intensity. One research paper rated the pain at 9.7 out of 10, higher than bone fractures or other conditions. Another discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced thoughts of self-harm amid bouts; the number dropped to 4% when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a long-term patient from Wales, finds this understandable. Her episodes began when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the floor and bang my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, similar to several triggers, made things more intense. After drinking sherry at her school leaving party, she recalls barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often mistook her episodes as drunken behavior. Support eventually came from her father and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often hid her condition. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to absences during episodes. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center.

Still, the failure to plan daily activities around erratic pain took its effect. She especially hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her children during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the small freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described across history. “The first account of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write authors in a publication on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an evil spirit who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Ancient healing texts suggest unusual remedies for what modern observers would classify as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, severe headache was identified as a separate condition, with treatments ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the first detailed account of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very intense headache happening and vanishing daily at specific hours”.

The disorder were only officially recognised by international medical committees in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a key blood vessel that supplies blood to the head. Prominent specialists in treating the disorder note this.

In 1998, researchers released the findings of a research project for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and observed the episodes in a brain scanner. The results, published in a major medical publication, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they felt better.

In spite of such advances, identification remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent multiple surgeries before eventually being diagnosed in 2014, after a doctor looked up his symptoms.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosis and managing occur because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're tired and low, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other common headache conditions, such as migraine, before diagnosing the disorder. A thorough patient history is essential: on which side do symptoms appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Certain characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help verify the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be sent to specialist centers. But many first go to A&E or are given unsuitable therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has experienced cluster headaches for most of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars pulled because dental professionals misunderstood her pain. She thinks dentists still need much more awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who responded. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a calm volunteer talked me through oxygen therapy and drugs until the attack passed.

Official guidance on treatment recommend that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a specific drug delivered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Prophylactic choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the attacks of some individuals.

But leading neurologists believe the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer treatment process and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The length of the cycle dictates the treatment.” Short cycles with infrequent attacks are handled with acute therapy alone. More prolonged or more intense periods require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an procedure into the side of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve activity.

The official guidelines need revising to reflect a
Paige Brown
Paige Brown

Tech enthusiast and digital strategist with a passion for exploring emerging technologies and sharing practical knowledge.